“Maybe you’re trying too hard. Maybe you don’t have to write something meaningful, just something honest.”
Helen Morgendorffer, Daria
So I did it. I deleted all of my old blog posts to reflect the new chapter of my life, career, and spiritual journey. I got tired of seeing my old posts. There was something about the energy in which I wrote the posts that didn’t connect with me anymore.
If I choose to recycle any of my old content, I still have them stashed away. But for now, I want to see where my thoughts, inspiration and divinity take me.
I also deleted my old posts because I was sick of my digital life not being in alignment with who I am in real life. I was so focused on trying to write something meaningful on my blog that it was difficult for me to be fully honest about where I was in real life. Online I feel like I made myself look like a reserved corporate oriented workaholic.
I wrote content on my website to attract clients and impress employers when I applied for internships. But now, I’m taking a leap on an interest I always had but never fully committed to until now… sexuality. Yes, I said it… Sexuality!
At first, I criticized my interests but then I decided to lean into it and see where it takes me. Once I made that decision, a lot of opportunities opened up for me including writing for publications and training to become a certified sex coach.
I don’t know where this journey will take me nor do I know what to expect in the long run. But I do know this is the first time in a long time that I feel in alignment, free and happy most days. While I’m not where I want to be, I’m especially grateful to be where I am now because I feel closer to my purpose.
Is it hard a lot of the time? Absolutely. But I know there’s a reason for where I am. So, I’m reluctantly but surely leaning into it with the help of friends, colleagues and dope family members.
I’m allowing myself to be seen and I’m scared. I’m starting to share the truth about what I’m doing and I’m scared. I’m doing things that I want to do that are a little taboo and I’m scared.
But each day I’m reminded to do it scared and show up even when I don’t want to… My stomach is a little tense right now and it’s a little hard to breathe deeply (I’m okay I promise) so I know this is the right decision. *Takes deep breath*
So, when can you expect to hear from me on here? To be honest, once a month. I may decide to post about two on special occasions or when I feel inspired but I feel confident about committing to one new blog post a month.
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If you read this far, thank you for your attention and for being present for this part of my journey. It’s definitely appreciated.
Living Life Vulnerably!
Chelsea A. Hamlet